The Legacy of the Worldwide Church of God

What it was like growing up in a cult and its impact on my life and others like me.

Monday, July 25, 2005

Overcoming the fear of religious zealots

I havent quite gotten over my immediate adversion to pushy religious people. My in laws favorite past time is to harrass me about going to church. I wonder why some people feel it is their need to save me? And its almost not that they are concerned about me really. It seems more so that their pushiness stems from wanting to make themselves feel better. Or make themselves look like the more worthy person.

After being raised in a destructive religious organization, Ive found its hard to trust anyone telling me what I need to do to be religiously acceptable. Who gives another person that right? Wouldnt it be so much better if people just put action into their hearts and give of themseleves to others instead of spewing the need to convert and control them. I guess I should consider myself blessed that I dont live in a country that controls our religious beliefs through violence and war but isnt the need for some organizations to control our minds and our wallets just another rung on that ladder? I wish I could get over the feeling of distrusting people that get on a soapbox about pushing their religion on me but I cant. Theres just something scary about it.

Friday, July 15, 2005

Apocalypse Now or How?

I havent posted in awhile. Just been busy but I dont want this blog to die because I think its important for people to realize how they can be taken advantage of by bad religious organizations. Religion is a powerful persuader. Everyone wants to believe in meaning and purpose. I know I do. I hope there is a meaning and purpose to this life. I hope there are some answers to all the questions I have. I am resolved that no earthly being knows any of these answers and if anyone tries to tell me they do than Id probably tell them they are full of it. Im comforted in the fact that I try to be the best person I can, work on being a giver and I am comfortable to be able to admit I just dont know what life after death holds for anyone.

Its taken me a long time to come to this conclusion.

My mother is still convinced the world is headed toward an apoplytic disaster and soon. I think she still believes all the things the cult told us although she has worked it all up into her version. I dont like world events either but all the people that are so anxious for the world to erupt into all the horrors of relevations, that sit back in judgement and persecution, are just as liable for the destruction as those they believe are instigating it. We catapult towards the horror on wings of stories told and manipulated by those wanting to control us and our environment. The other voices of reason, that wish to be free of hatred, of prejudice, that want good for all people, that just want to survive and prosper in peace, are merely unheard. We are all of the human race, its too bad we cant act like it.